The WAITING — We’ve Been Waiting All Day for Test Results — We’re Still Waiting

We were hoping for news today, preferably good news, from dad’s doctors. 

Instead, we waited, all day, but no news came. 

Right now, the waiting is the hardest part. But I know really that what’s coming next will be much harder. 

If dad has lung cancer, which his doctors suspect, then we’ll need to understand what that means and what his options are — none will be ideal — all will involve some type of discomfort, anxiety and pain. 

We’ve been through something similar with our mom. It seems like yesterday we were walking these same hospital halls, wracked with worry about her latest test and what would come next. 

We didn’t understand death and dying like we do now. We were in crisis, we were panicked, we were scared. Now we know there are choices. We know we’ll sit and talk as a family about what to do next. We know the questions to ask to make the best choice, but it won’t be easy. None of this is easy. 

More than anything I don’t want my dad to suffer, I don’t want him to be in pain. I want us to have truly learned for our experiences with our mom and do what’s best for our dad. Until then, we wait. 

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